Moon opposite Venus and Envious Women

I have Venus in Capricorn ( book worm/ nerd) opposite my moon in Cancer(home is where the heart is), which is conjunct Saturn; what a mess. So when female clients tell me about jealous/ envious women, I can definitely relate. Moon opposite Venus is one of the worst aspects for attracting envy, and with my Scorpio Sun and Mercury, it is a constant issue in my life. If there is a woman anywhere in my vicinity with any self-doubt or weakness even if it has nothing to do with anything I have,  she will become my enemy, either publicly or secretly (12^th house).(Not all women are jealous, and those women tend to be friends or at least people that I truly respect). This makes neighborhood barbecues, PTA meeting, and even going to the hair salon a breeding ground for the green-eyed monster. I don’t know why, I don’t have anything special and tend to spend my time alone in order to avoid this energy. It’s not about me, personally, my elements are like hot wet, heat that act as a poultice to pull this out of women with issues of insecurity. With Saturn in Cancer, another horrible aspect, I have no real support system, the women closest to me,”mother figures” have been the ones who try to hurt me but also want me close to them so they can control, especially when it comes to family, so the only thing I envy of others is their relationships to mothers, sisters, friends, etc.

Saturn in Cancer also brings issues with “older people”, and down here in the south that means if someone was born 6 hours before you, they consider themselves your elder! If I do reach out and try to interact and relate, I get pummeled with secret gossip and women trying to destroy what I have, even if they don’t want what I have. They become fixated on me, and when I overhear them or they are confronted by those who would defend me or try to understand their craziness, they say things like “it’s not fair” or “I am better than she is, so I deserve more”. They already have more! No matter how childish and awful their emotions lead them to be, they have women who love them and will stand by them.

These issues become more difficult with my Mars in Aries (I have earned my nickname, Warchild). It is my nature to meet enemies or anyone trying to hurt me or mine head on and to use my sharp Scorpion tongue to take them apart. I am only protecting and defending myself, but others who do not understand see this reaction and think I am a monster, but all of that heavy energy and the problems it cause me leave me with my back against the wall. That is the worst place ever to be, facing a Scorpion with nowhere to go and nothing left to lose. I usually just try to be invisible, but that doesn’t usually work for me no matter how hard I try. I would rather use this energy to fight real evil, like bullies who hurt those who cannot help themselves, i.e., children, animals, the disadvantaged.

These trials and tests mean something karmic, but one thing I know for sure is that it has made me a better astrologer and counselor. I don’t get invited to a lot of dinner parties, unless it involves “enlightened” women, ( I rarely have issues with men, and get along with them quite well), but when anyone has a life or death issue or needs to see beyond social boundaries, I am the first one they call. It is often shocking that a woman who tries to keep me out of her social or professional circle will come to me for advice. I then, have to be extra patient and enlightened and put my feelings and grudges (not easy for a Scorpion) aside to do my best to help them. So, at least the situation is not hopeless and it can turn around for the better, though it is incredibly hurtful and difficult at times.

 One thing is for sure, I must have been a real bitch in my last incarnation to have these configurations and need to learn from them!